My fight for life! :) Part 1

I am someone who is too afraid to be in a relationship. I do believe in love but the fact of being in love, for me is just a plain game. I haven’t been in a serious relationship for the past 2 years nor dated for the last year. I’ve been single for a long time and now have entered a complicated relationship that in fact, I am not that too serious about. Entering relationships for me are just games, you play it and you enjoy it. Being with someone for me is like collecting souvenirs from different places or tasting every fine dining that my time and possession can buy. I am not a “play girl”; if that’s what you think. The truth is, I don’t believe in men. I don’t believe in being happy with the one. I don’t believe in commitments. I just believe that life has a lot of things to offer rather than relationships and money. I just rely on life’s reality, it may suck but I could work on it.

 Today’s reality lies in 3 different stages. The 1^st stage is that in reality or in life you must love yourself. Well, in this 1^st stage I learned how to act and to think positively. They say that when you wake up and the first thing you do is smile, your day will turn out to be a success without any negative vibrations. Loving one isn’t that bad. They may call it selfishness, but the fact that life’s problems could never be gone, that we must spend more time with ourselves so we can put things and our lives together in places. The 2^nd stage is those special love and interests. In this stage once you found yourself loving yourself and everything falls into places, you can give and share what you feel about those special people and interests in your life. You must note, that you cannot fail if you put yourself first and still care for those you love the most. The 3^rd stage is facing life, in this stage people often use fake smiles to cover up their problems or spend millions to say that they are enjoying what they are and have. But what people don’t think about a lot is that whatever we may do, a problem is always a problem. In this stage, facing reality or life is my key why I can still enjoy it even if it may be impossible. Because once you might face it, you must be ready for it. Life is a real challenge but what matters most is that we can show Life and destiny who’s the boss. We make what we can do in our lives, problems are there but they can be done.

I don’t need relationships or being with someone to prove that I’m happy. I just need to fix myself to show everyone that being me is in fact a good thing. On what I am standing now is a topsy-turvy town full of problems but I don’t really bother them that much. It wouldn’t cause me a dime if I would fix every wrong thing, I have learned to enjoy it and beat my problems in every way. Not by the use of alcohol or such, but by being with the people I love the most, doing the things I love and finding new more ways to enjoy who and what I am.

I do love new and exciting things. I love people and am in different places. Even of today’s recession people find it very hard to understand how reality works. That’s because they don’t beat it, they go with it. You cannot find a job? Or a company would hire you? Start your own business. Money problems and rents? Find ways to make money and be resourceful. I know that you may think, “Who are you? You think this is too easy?” Well, I know it’s not. Because it’s like a boxing match, Reality is like your opponent and the ring is like your life- you mustn’t cross its borderlines or you’ll be disqualified or dead.  Before the boxing match, you train yourself. By in life, you prepare yourself for the worst. When the time comes for the match or the problem, you are truly prepared and can win it! It’s complicated but we must also know that in every complicated things we can fix it, only if we want to. Right?

Learn to enjoy life! And never give up, if you cannot reach for the stars, try to reach for the skies. If you cannot reach for the skies nor the stars, there always other ways and other things you can reach for. Maybe it’s not for you but beat reality, and I am telling you that beating it was the greatest thing I’m doing everyday. :)